Life Change

These past few days have been filled with many different emotions.  Emotions that are so hard to explain right now.  I know there aren't many people on my post, really just dear friends so I don't mind saying what is on my mind.  Wasn't the reason for this blog to look back in a year and see where I am versus where I was?

My sister and I found out that we have a brother in this world.  We had emotions of being scared of who this person was.  We then realized that he was just as scared and nervous as us.  He wanted to be able to provide information to his daughters about where he came from.  We had to understand that.  I would want the same for my children.

After it was proven that he is definitely our brother, my sister and I have allowed ourselves to explore every emotion possible.  I think we are getting past the hard part and understanding that this is not necessarily a bad thing.  He seems like a really nice person.  And he looks more like our Dad than we do!!!!!  It is also really helping us to move forward with things that we need to get resolved about our past as well.

The Lord always places things in front of you that you don't quite understand but things happen for a reason.  We just have to be open and allow things to happen and fall into place.

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I had a really long day today.  I got to sit in a meeting to talk about my professional goals and what actions items I need to take to improve.... fun.

After a calm and peaceful lunch I get to head over to a meeting with my customer that is meant to be an hour and turns into over two hours.
Stressing that I won't get home to take MaKenzie to dance, Mother-in-Law once again comes to the rescue as I did not get out of work until the time I was suppose to take her!

But I had a great husband that sent me out the door to go and celebrate my sister's birthday with ritas and girls chit chat.  Boy I am blessed.

Makes me really think that I need to quit sweating the small stuff.  These jobs and crappy demands that we get every day that will never really get us anywhere is nothing like what the true reward is... that is friends and family!

All of my friends and family... I am grateful for you and the little things just don't matter :) God Bless and have a great Friday and weekend!

Honoring My Big Sis

Today is my sister's 40th Birthday.  I can't believe it.  I look back on everything we have been through and I am just in awe.  We came here with just each other.  April had to translate for me to our American grandparents.  She has been my sister and mother for years.  She is still that way with me.  That is my sister's heart though.  She always takes care of people.  I am truly blessed to have my sister in my life and hope I show her enough how much she means to me.

My Weekend

I had a really good weekend in Fredericksburg with my hubby and friends and family.  Troy and I were really able to connect again and have some true alone time which is something we rarely get to do with as many kids as we have.  I think it actually recharged our relationship.  Troy actually drank wine which floored me because he is definitely a country boy.  I have to say that Fredericksburg is not really catered to men. I think he was a trooper for shopping and going to the wineries.  I am a pretty lucky person.

So back now to reality.  I get to turn in a self-evaluation at work and then will have a review this week with by boss to go over it. This is not going to be pretty I am sure.

Wish me luck.  The good side is at least I have President's Day off next week. :)

Going out of my mind!!!!!

Boy have these weeks been flying by.  I had a birthday that took me one year closer to the big 40! Oh well.  Life goes on... apparently.  My kids are really trying their hardest to get to me this week so I have to sit back and reflect on what's important.  I have found the way to meditate when my kids get on my last nerve.  I look at their baby pictures on my computer.  I remember when they were Oh so sweet :)  Before they got minds of their own!  Off to Fredericksburg I go this weekend.  I am ready for the wine country, shopping, and spending some much needed time alone with my hubby.  So why am I feeling guilty now that I found out Cameron has a basketball tournament on Saturday that I will miss?  I guess when it comes down to it I still want to be there for everything with my kids.

My job is really making me go out of my mind and I hope that I can honestly say that the last ten years weren't wasted here.  I can only hope that I am still marketable when the time comes to get the ax!

Ok everyone, I vented.  Thanks for listening...or reading.... I feel much better now :)